lyrics by kevin dye
they see only shadows
on the boundary of reason you lead a recovery
to stay in the lines at the cost of your sanity
you’re not meant to be like them
you will paint a reflection that you’ll never be
and you will die for brilliance veiled in foundations of lies and deceit
and you will hide everything about you that’s anything but flawless
you cut out the heart of the person you could’ve been
you trade in your conscience for somebody else’s skin
once altered to taste you’ll see what you’ve feared
the image you’ve sought for so many years
is far from as perfect as the things you used to see
and yet you still paint a reflection that you’ll never be
and you would die for brilliance veiled in foundations of lies and deceit
and once you hide everything about you that’s anything but flawless
and they have shattered an exception and that’s when you’ll see
they have won
we can only see
the beauty buried beneath
can’t you see my dear
you are all you have left to fear
like this you mean
you have embraced the awful
a petty excuse for an author
scripted a false conviction
cast out what you believed in
and here we are
a vain attempt to light the dark
you’ll never see that this is love
a constant chance to rise above
and we’re not coming down
you want to be the answer you’ve defined
and you won’t ever question why
so go ahead and revel in what you’ve revised
you didn’t change a thing this time
i had no doubt you would edit the meaning out
but like all clichés you will lie in the bed you’ve made
right your wrong and write yourself out
here we are, and we’re not coming down
you want to be the answer you’ve defined
and you won’t ever question why
so go ahead and revel in what you’ve revised
you didn’t change a thing this time
cast in the pattern
i’m just the letter lost and better left unfound
the vessel of redemption cut loose and run aground
i am the messenger that never made a sound
right now i might as well be lost in reverie
no cause left for the consciousness you ever could call me
content with defeat i tell myself that this is who i am
that i planned to be this apathetic
a pathetic lack of plans, i’ll resign with but a sigh
forget there ever was a reason why
i was trying to be something
in a home that doesn’t want me
it’s better being nothing
when it’s all i’ve ever been
right now i might as well be lost in reverie
no cause for the consciousness you ever could call me
i would rather die than live with what i’ll never become
…and to those who carry on
everybody meets their end
some will leave as they began
in a hospital bed at their time
sometimes we’re taken away
stolen back to where we came
i never believed you would die
at twenty nine
all along we’re meant for this
moving forward to exist
we live on and we will never be whole again
but i just wish you’d open your eyes and you’d wake up
and you’d see what you’ll never see
and this time all of our ends would meet
but it seems even the best of dreams will fade
and we all end up the same
only a memory
the sound of letting go
you preach to the deafened
your voices speak to no one
your droning drowns in its own decay
you fail your lessons
by mimicking the echoes
that cry for you to find your own way
you have defied them
this is everything that you deserve
know the horror of the wrong you’ve earned
when you’re the helplessness you sing about
only i can save you
so i hold in every breath
until the air in me begs to forget
that it ever found peace in my lungs
and it screams up my throat to my tongue
it forms the words that end this all
the moment beckoning to fall
with a wind bellowed deep from my chest
at last i’ve begun the collapse
i tremble with the sound of letting go
the wretched ring of everything i had in me
my heart unfurled, i exorcise the silence from this world
this is everything that you deserve
this is what you’ve forgotten
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the sun will rise and lead me home
lyrics by kevin dye
a vague ambition
on the horizon, there's a hope we'll all amount to greater things
but we let the paths to them get broken
why do we accept that we'll never reach an end
where vices and regrets are not the truth, and not the cure
this won’t ever stop, we are lying to ourselves
between the margins, there's a marginal desire to be something
but we let the words written within them hold us back
why let this context become the meaning when it's just
a pretense of abstract convictions never meant to be
we can't help ourselves, can't turn it around
this won’t ever stop, we are lying to ourselves
walls
act like you’re ashamed
that there’s nothing left inside your frame
but i know that you buried what once was deep inside a maze
sincerity led astray, you’re terrified
the face you show the world is who you really are
the crutch you call a name
safe in the haven of commonplace
you’re in a cycle you can’t escape
tear down the walls that confine us all and we can start again
tear down the walls, it’s so beautiful to be where we began
afraid of what’s behind
you loathe the other side
but it’s here you’ll feel awake
together we will tear down the walls, it’s a shame it got this far.
burned us alive
all the years that i stood rooted and strong
a monument atop the ridge you put me on
but i hear the machines rush in like a tide
and i know there’s no place that i can hide
i should have held my breath and saved a thread of mountain air
i should have known for so long that this day would come
and all that i wanted was a life hand in hand
where we fill in the spaces the best that we can
but the pain that i’m feeling, you won’t understand
and the limbs that you’ve severed, they will never mend
i should have held my breath and saved a thread of mountain air
i should have known for so long that this day would come
so i’ll forget the things that have filled me with pride
i’ll wander through dreams that have all but died
i’ll look to the sky but it’s not enough
the sun’s buried now under towers of lust
they have burned us alive
i should have held my breath and saved a thread of mountain air
i should have known for so long that this day would come
i should have held my breath and saved a thread of mountain air
they have burned us alive, they have burned us alive
in the morning
here you aren’t again
holding steadfast to the plan
turn your back on the way out
i know i can’t save you now
feel the pulse of disease
weigh on you like gravity
forge a fix with medicine
you’re not fixing anything
how could you truly believe
the ends justify the means
when you forgot what ends are for
and you can’t be anyone anymore
let the current steal you out to sea
like a fate forecast in a fever dream
sink down into your dark abyss
now the parasite of your own ailment
i’m still the sail you tore apart
floating in the wake, an abandoned ark
the sun will rise and lead me home
where i’m safe and sound, forever alone
you’ll always be the plague inside of me.
sleepwalker
what is happiness if you know nothing but a lie?
what is beautiful if you don’t open up your mind?
sleepwalking through life and you’re running out of time
your faith in the broadcast that everything you ever loved has died
sleepwalking through life…will this ever end?
an idle contradiction, a maverick marionette
you’ve heard it all but you haven’t listened yet
blind to the meaning but there’s something you forget
(your perception is the gun to your head
and i’m wondering when you will ask yourself)
what is obvious if you don’t open up your eyes and see again?
sleepwalking through life and you’re running out of time
your faith in the broadcast that everything you ever loved has died
sleepwalking through life…will this ever end?